I look around and there are lots of people who write blogs and musing get famous, get a ted talks, and have their own youtube channels. Well I guess I would have to make a youtube video instead of just writing to have my own channel, but no one is clamoring for any of it, in fact I don’t have more than a few friends asking me to write more. Ok So I do not buy Adwords from search, I don’t have a big social media presence. But my ADD is taking over and I should get back to the topic at hand.

I have been writing and posting for years and wondering if I have gotten good at it, or at least got better. That what I write touches a chord, makes a difference, or even gets someone to think. When I started writing It was to get some personal stories out, then it transformed to really brain dump of things in my head. I stated in another blog I write to have a hobby thats is my outlet (non-paid) and its also theraputic.

I started to take stock as I was discussing with my management team about building a good team you need to make them feel like they are making a difference. So I started to think am I making a difference with this and if not what is my motivation to keep writing. So my secondary motivation is to get better at writing, better at expressing myself and better at getting my point across. Well how do you get feedback, or even rate one article vs another. It is not like a sport where you can look at the scoreboard and see who won. Wow, the last article only had three dangling participles vs the first one had 7 that is 2 extra points.

So how do I know, and how many do I have to write till get to the goal. And what is the goal. Then I thought what if there is no finish line for this, there is no “wow I am done…” point. That this is a journey, and there there is no end goal other than to improve how I communicate, document my thoughts and not worry about comparing one post to another. The more I write the better I would get if I did not write at all. The people who get better at something are not always the people with the most natural talent, but the people willing to practice and do something, not the people who read on how to do something. I realized the fear of me not doing has to be greater from the fear of it not being good. And people who are willing to be game changers, people we see famous (bezos, musk, jobbs, etc.) fear of failure was supplanted by the fear of not doing something.

Hope this one helps you think about what you are afraid to do, and pushes your fear of not doing something to be stronger so you go out and do it.

This opinion is mine, and mine only, my current or former employers have nothing to do with it. I do not write for any financial gain, I do not take advertising and any product company listed was not done for payment. But if you do like what I write you can donate to the charity I support (with my wife who passed away in 2017) Morgan Stanley’s Children’s Hospital or donate to your favorite charity. I pay to host my site out of my own pocket, my intention is to keep it free.  I do read all feedback, I mostly wont post any of them

This Blog is a labor of love, and was originally going to be a book.  With the advent of being able to publish yourself on the web I chose this path.  I will write many of these and not worry too much about grammar or spelling (I will try to come back later and fix it) but focus on content.  I apologize in advance for my ADD as often topics may flip.  I hope one day to turn this into a book and or a podcast, but for now it will remain a blog.